She met old school rapper Kool G Rap when she was 17 and he was 27.They married soon after (even though it was not legal because she was a minor), and Steffans claimed that he wanted her to call him "Daddy." She later described in vivid detail how he physically abused and cheated on her, and a year after the birth of their son, Steffans left him.In the book, Steffans described fondly a lover she referred to as Papa.Although she was explicit about their trysts, she did not out Papa until years later where she revealed that Papa was rapper, Method Man.However, after he got the Law and Order: SVU gig, he cut her off and told her that she was ready to be on her own.Steffans described how she became then 18-year-old Ray J's girlfriend, and she described how his lovemaking made her feel young again.
"It was another example of my doing without thinking, for all the wrong reasons," Steffans said.
She ordered one dish, and he ordered five entrees for himself.
She watched as he took "tiny forkfuls from each dish…Then just that fast, he was done, leaving the majority of the food behind." While most people would be all WTF you just wasted a shit ton of food, Steffans said that she was "in awe" and that "in [her] inexperienced mind, it was the height of glamour." After Steffans and Durst's first date, he was elusive with her, but finally, they got together.
Steffans wrote that she and Ja Rule used to party together, take XTC, and have threesomes despite the fact that he was in a relationship with his high school sweetheart.
Steffans also shared that after the first sexcapade she had with him in Los Angeles, she recited lines to him from a Jadakiss song: "Got a chick named Super-head/She give super head." Soon Superhead became the nickname for Steffans that she and Ja Rule shared.