I'm a strong person because you raised me that way. Because you can't take responsibility for your actions.
I have to get on with my life and if that means living without a relationship with you, because you can't tell me what happened.
The day I came home and saw my brother outside distraught that "ma left." How could she do that? ""It wasn't two years.""TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED! ""I went into the garage and tried to commit suicide.""But you didn't. I went along like nothing ever happened, like every one else in the family. I can't go on pretending that nothing ever happened. I guess I can't go on pretending that my family doesn't exist. Ok, I've stopped crying, I've removed the pizza place from speed dial and I've put down the Ben and Jerry's ice cream - it's time to rebuild.
You all don't know what it is like to feel like you don't matter anymore; especially since the one person who always made you feel like you mattered is now gone.... From: Some Chick Date: 1/17/06Yeh, I didn't get that.
He made me understand that there were reasons why she left. He never said anything bad about you and I don't want to hear it. How can I not be mad when you disappeared and I have to hear that friends had seen you but I hadn't? Friends would tell me how they saw me jogging all over the city. I'm not doing anything, just found out I get a free Gold's Gym pass as a company perk. I've never told anyone beforethat I wouldn't mind being married to him.
He's the one who had filled me in on some of the things that had happened to her growing up. Too late, I started to yell and this is when I woke up my neighbors."Ma, I don't want to hear anything bad about dad, he's not here to defend himself. How can I not be angry when I had to hear stories about you being in the same city as me, but you never called us? Yes, he was very superficial), I hit the bricks like I was training for a fight. When we're married and shacking up you can walk over to me and spank me with the belt. The idea about shackin up, getting married and spanking you is intriguing. Especially the first couple years or so of no child responsibilities and just two people doing whatever they way. From: Some Chick Date: 1/25/06It's only stalking if it's not returned. Good, because not only am I honored but I feel the same way.
Just how much is a person supposed to take in at 4AM? How can the only thing that you tell me about the period when you left be that, 'It wasn't two years'? Yes, him knowing that the woman who's spirit he broke, that the woman who developed an eating disorder after we broke up, (Though since, I've learned to never let a man make me doubt my "cute appeal" - lol) was looking good; and that felt good as hell.
Can't I just life my life and let her life be her life? What he could never explain to me, was why she left. (I wanna tell her, I fucking hate her at this point - but I leave that part out). The girl who people used to say "smiled too much", stopped smiling. But I tell ya, even though I weighed less than I did in high school and was much healthier, the best part was when I saw his brother after we broke up and his brother relayed the fact that I was looking good.