How I want to be off these pills and just be normal again But the hard and painful truth has to be faced: the depression is real and will not go away by itself. I cannot make up my mind about the smallest details. Gradually I hope to be able to stay up the roller coaster.
One cannot just throw away the medication, however much this may seem desirable. Depression is not a weak disease; it is one that specializes in cruel effects. I can ignore the side-effects of the antidepressants as long as I don't feel too bad. I am most afraid and panic at the idea of being alone. However much I wish to die and wish that this ridiculous person I have become to die, I know that death is not an option. Every person I meet impatiently wants me to be well and never to hear again about depression. With other people, as I go up and down, I may have to learn to be a good actress.
After some weeks the antidepressants begin to take effect.
The depressed person feels less down, at first for part of the day, then for more of the day.
In the course of a developing depression, it is common for there to be a wide variation in mood during the day. Depressed persons are rejecting what they have become. The medication may help with sleep and this is a great blessing.
But one is still very much on the bottom of the roller coaster.
Often the individual with BPD threatens self-harm or cuts to release tension.What do all the films and print stories have in common? Dating a person with BPD is not part of your deal – or so you thought.Jodi Arias – in my opinion, – a good example of a woman with quiet BPD (she functions superficially well but her chameleon-like façade breaks open once her relational views are challenged) murdered her ex-boyfriend Travis Alexander; Glenn Close in Fatal Attraction attempted to murder her former lover but failed and found her own death.If this ship becomes a timeless elegant regatta or a wrack is heavily determined by the personality styles of the involved partners’.Remember we all have personality traits, which does not make us personality disordered.These behaviors are sometimes perceived as manipulative: To get attention and one’s needs met – “I need you here; you can’t leave; I show you why.” Scared and emotionally drained partners generally seek advice on how to get out; others are still confused about their partner’s behavior. ” When the partner with BPD travels the roller-coaster of emotions (it’s a habit and due to the lack of coping skills not because it feels good) the healthier partner feels overwhelmed and describes his situation as being “stuck between a rock and a hard place;” feeling bad and responsible hence unable to leave her, he states his partner gets “incredibly angry and sometimes physically and verbally abusive.” What follows is a pattern of submissive, self-loathing behaviors.“One day I’m her king the next moment I am no good.My experience with depression leads me to describe one of its worst features: its variable symptoms.These symptoms not only make the experience of depression particularly distressing for the patient but also confuse and mislead those who deal with the depressed person.No one really wants to meet or speak with someone who is depressed. I feel foolish, unable to do things that children easily do.Whenever a positive change occurs, everyone hopes that it is a permanent improvement. If sleeplessness develops, the morning hours can be quite terrible. The death of such a creature would seem to be a blessing.